Photo Credit: Matthias Ripp

Urgent and Timely Responses urges artists to engage with the news that directly affects their lives as artists and as human beings. If you would like to submit a response, please see our call for submissions here.

21st Century Soundscape

          we’ve been reminded [again]
there’s a time and place
                                              for everything.

That our fate will arrive in the frame
of another          Post:          gun barrel
                            Pre:            opened door.

Do you imagine                    in the end,
we’ll finally hear
                            the difference between
                            a gunshot and truck backfire?

How, after the reveal behind door number __,
we’ll have decided whether it best to run

or do what I once heard
we should:          First:         cover our hands
                                               in the blood of another
                            Then:         smear.

Was it for you as it was for me—
listening to a survivor describe on the radio
the scene inside the church
                            inside the school
                                      inside the club, on the sidewalk
as a “chaos collection.”

Images that’ll stay with her
          not as memories          but premonitions
for what she believes she’ll “no doubt see again.”

On the way to work, I remember last night’s dream:
                            A.   globes
                            B.   lines
                            C.   points     drifting in silence—

a            scene I described to my partner, a scholar of the Cosmos,
as          a landscape I thought I heard after waking:
an         orchestral reprise of everything innocent
falling   at once.

James A.H. White holds an MFA in Creative Writing from Florida Atlantic University, where he was the Lawrence A. Sanders poet fellow. A winner of the 2014 AWP Intro Journals Project award in Poetry, his work has appeared or is forthcoming in Colorado Review, Cha, Gertrude, Tahoma Literary Review, and DIAGRAM, among others. He is the author of hiku [pull], a chapbook (Porkbelly Press, 2016). A first-generation Japanese-American, James currently resides in South Florida with his partner, John, and their two dogs.

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Photo Credit to Ed Suominen at Flickr

Urgent and Timely Responses urges writers to engage with the news that directly affects their lives as artists and as human beings. If you would like to submit a response, please see our call for submissions here.

Self-Portrait as Collected Bones [Rejoice, Rejoice]

after Paris auction of indigenous human remains & objects.

For there’s a polished-bright medal
of honor hanging in my chest like another
man’s stilled heart: for my body
lies here waiting for you in fields
broken by hands the same shapes as
howitzer blasts: for I am
learning to stand up again
with only cleaned bones: singing rejoice
rejoice are the quieted ribcages of our beloved
nation: for the massacre is only
a series of colorless photographs, archives
of snow & nothing else: mother, tell me
what you remember of another man’s hand
reaching into your throat
like a night-frozen glove: how warm
was it? Was it him with the words
of a god beaded over his lips like sweat? For
the wounded is someone touched
& entered with the weapon we shape
into fingerprints: no matter how wrecked
or soft: we return to the field
wrapped in this one name
of god: rejoice rejoice, say the hand-
bones that want the heft of memory:
for I am a decade: a century
of openmouthed thirst
even as the snow keeps falling—
& falling through:

Michael Wasson’s poems appear in American Poets, Narrative, Denver Quarterly, Prairie Schooner, and Bettering American Poetry. He is nimíipuu from the Nez Perce Reservation in Idaho and lives abroad.

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Oncoming traffic

Photo by Wayne Dollemore

Passages North is thrilled to announce the winners of this year’s Neutrino Short-Short Prize! We had an exceptional crop of entries this year, with over 200 power-packed stories that left our staff clutching our collective pearls with awe and glee. We’d like to thank Lindsay Hunter for helping us choose our winner, as well as everyone who submitted. The winning stories, as well as selected finalists, will appear in Issue 38 of Passages North, out Spring 2017.

Neutrino Short-Short Prize Winner, 2016

Alex McElroy – “Responsible Fear”

About McElroy’s story, Lindsay Hunter writes “I loved how it made my heart race. The narrator is sharp and funny and the ironic ending was a great surprise.”

Runners Up
Jennifer Givhan – “The Trial”
Nickalus Rupert – “The Ballad of the Tomato Lady”
Alexandra Lytton Regalado – “Mosaic”

Marc Sheehan – “An Anti-Lament for the Great Age of Barnstorming”
Katrina Prow – “The Stars at Night are Big and Bright”
Emily Temple – “Heart of Hearts”
Rebekah Hall – “Question”
Ingrid Jendrzejewski – “The Middle Ground”

Congratulations again to Alex, Jennifer, Nickalus, and Alexandra! Thanks so much to everyone who submitted. Keep an eye out for the announcement to come about the winner of our Waasnode Short Fiction Prize.

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Hill Top View

Photo by James Marvin Phelps

by Michael Berry

One Friday night during my first winter in Marquette, some fellow graduate students and I braved a snowstorm for post-reading beers at a dive bar that more often than not is filled with locals who work swing shifts in the power plant, or snowplow drivers, or a shrinking number of miners. That night, I wore leather dress boots and a new overcoat. We ordered a pitcher of Pabst and another of a local beer, and were enjoying ourselves civilly when three empty cans of Busch Light hit me in the back. When I turned to see who hurled the empties, three bearded, hatted men in Carhartt coveralls caked with grime laughed to each other between looks. No words were exchanged, but their message was clear: We know you are an outsider and we do not have to like it. The dichotomy of us/them, outsider/insider, who are they/who am I, in particular to Michigan’s Upper Peninsula, is the driving force of Adam Schuitema’s first novel, Haymaker, which  answers the question: What happens to a small UP town when a group of well-intentioned but ultimately zealous Libertarians invades?

Haymaker by Adam Shuitema

Early in the novel, Schuitema establishes the population of Haymaker (a fictional town) in a way that truly represents the spirit, people, and way of life in the Upper Peninsula. And in this representation, the book’s greatest tension—how will Haymaker react—is born. Nearly everyone in Haymaker has either lived there their whole lives or for a majority of it, which is commonplace in the UP. They live here and many will die here having never left. I’ve spoken to several “transplants” in Marquette in my time here, and many, once they decide that this is their place, where they belong, they are completely at peace with dying here, surrounded by the snow and the great Lake Superior on the north side. The townspeople of Haymaker, from the major players to the background townies, embody that same mentality and rugged spirit.

Haymaker’s characters are some of the more memorable I’ve stumbled across in my more recent reads. I’ve always been drawn to truly real, human, oddly gritty characters, and Schuitema gives us a whole cast of them. There is no singular protagonist, but rather a cast of townspeople and outsiders, some of whom are followed frequently from chapter to chapter, and readers are able to piece together their own sense of us/them as they pick their way through each perspective. Perhaps you may be drawn to Ash Capagrossa, the first character we meet, a teenage basketball standout who, while watching her baby brother, notices a stranger taking photos of downtown Haymaker, an event which sets the rest of the book in motion.

Perhaps you’ll be drawn to Ash’s uncle, Donnie Sarver, like I was. Donnie is tattooed, runs the local towing service/auto shop and every year during Haymaker’s “Boomtown Days,” an annual celebration of the town’s legacy of lumber, the hardy men and women who built the town and how far it has come since being carved out of the woods by hands calloused and cracked, Donnie fights an outsider who has either challenged him or been challenged in a public spectacle, an act which is legally protected under a two-hundred-year-old statute protecting one’s “personal honor” and the right to defend it.

Donnie is the Upper Peninsula embodied. He lives in an apartment above Rita’s Floral and Gift, right in downtown Haymaker, smokes and drinks hard, fixes things for a living, detests anyone and anything that has not lived in Haymaker or the UP their whole life and he defends those beliefs tooth and nail (and with great success—his fight record at the beginning of the novel is seven wins, no losses).

The novel begins in Haymaker (the town itself is set up as its own character), and shortly we are transported to Michigan City, Indiana, to meet the soon-to-be invaders, the Freedom Community and its own Public Relations guru, Josef Novak, the only character from that group we get to follow. Everything on the Libertarian side of these events is filtered through Novak, and his own complex humanity is revealed throughout the unfolding of the story. Haymaker treads dangerously close to becoming a political novel, but Shuitema cleverly deconstructs the idea of personal/party politics. I found myself questioning my own values, wondering what my home was, how I would defend it, if I would defend it, and how that would even play out in today’s world.

Schuitema’s prose is patiently and purposefully understated throughout the novel, which seems to match these characters, this town and the endless winters that hunker down in the UP every year (seriously, we had snow on May 15). So the moments he opens up to the imagistic or lyrical stand out that much more, like his descriptions of the lake, the colors (colors are so present throughout this novel) of the seasons and other moments meant to sing, do so when they’re contrasted with the grittiness of the rest of the prose.

The language of the frequent campaign/public relations materials placed at the end of many of the chapters mimics pamphlet/brochure vernacular. It’s almost scary Schuitema can so fluidly work between the literary and the purposefully businesslike. These moments, titled “Haymaker at a Glance,” give us further insight into the town and how outsiders perceive what we may already know or are beginning to understand about the characters. They help gear us up for the showdowns, the throwdowns, and I would safely bet that you’ll be rooting for one side, character, or place by the end.

Both of Schuitema’s books are set in Michigan. He lives here and teaches here (this review is written here, too). These facts may make it easy to bill Schuitema as a “Michigan writer.” But narrowing his work to such a place-specific label is limiting. Michigan is a state with four actual seasons and a wildly ranging economy, landscape, and demographics, and not using that geographic literary weapon would be plain silly. Schuitema paints vivid, memorable pictures of the Upper Peninsula and its people, but the events in Haymaker go beyond the woods, the pines, and Superior to the north; they show us what could be, what could happen, if our own idea of “home” were challenged. Wherever you’re from, you’ll find Schuitema’s work beautifully subtle and gritty, patient and, I believe, important.

Michael Berry is an MFA candidate in Fiction at Northern Michigan University and an Associate Editor for Passages North. In a past life, Michael ventured across the country to participate in the odd-known world of competitive trapshooting.

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Photo by Matt MacGillivray

Associate poetry editor deziree a. brown on today’s bonus poem: “We Can Never Be Brothers” is both hypnotic and reflective, grounding us in the body while a murky world unfolds around it. Seroussi’s poem carefully explores familial love and the painful journey of forgiving the ones we love the most in an almost haunting way.

We Can Never Be Brothers

Lying side by side in a hotel bed,
our bodies are crooked mirrors
of one another:
brother, sister, all grown, both alone.
The half-decade gulf I could never cross,
between us.
Next door, our parents sleep
in a web of foreign bed sheets,
project dreams of grandchildren
on the walls.
It’s just us now, like it always was.
Our old bedroom we shared
until you grew
tired of me, left me
on the other side of the house,
half a room empty—I filled
with toys and books
that didn’t answer when I called.
Brother, let’s say sorry
on the count of three.
I want to tell you about the men
I never love
as much as you.
I will never know their bodies
like I know yours: innocently,
with so little effort,
a comfort earned
through road trips and wrestling,
shared baths and piggy-back rides.
Strong thighs, thick brows, our marbled green eyes:
we could have been brothers. Together,
we could have been boys.
But in this artificial home
where we stay for days,
I dress in the bathroom,
I hide what’s mine from view.
I know you do not want to see what’s happened
to your baby.
I’m a monster Brother.
I thunder, I moan, I bleed.
Could you pick out my body, face masked, in a row?
No? Let’s say sorry
on the count of three.
For years I thought, if you’d love me more,
what I’d give to be a brother.
Now, I’m letting go.

Dahlia Seroussi is a Jewish Latina poet who earned her MFA from Oregon State University. Her poems are forthcoming or have appeared in North American Review, Normal School Online, The Fem Lit, Kentucky Review, Monterey Poetry Review, and others. She also has a chapbook, What I Know, published by Finishing Line Press. Her essay on the emotional interior of life as a nanny appeared in True Parent magazine. You can follow her #poetnanny antics on Twitter: @dahliaseroussi.

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French Macarons - Raspberry Buttercream

Photo by Mariko

Managing editor Matt Weinkam on today’s bonus fiction: Please, I beg you, read “The Quiz and the Pledge” out loud. Few stories are so rich with sound or crafted with such care for rhythm that they beg to be recited like a poem. But—goddamn—just listen to the sentences here. JoAnna Novak wields words like fire, the prose sparks on the page, but only by reading aloud can you appreciate the full blaze. So find your partner, your cat, a half-empty cereal box, whatever, and read the shit out of this story. You won’t regret it.

The Quiz and the Pledge

True and true: Willie thought of herself as Weepy Willie, blobby and blue-haired. But also: the first non-binary TKE pledge. A macaron maven. A nocturnal voice against the far-right. Breather of oh, Dad. Tugger of the uncalloused hands of god, Mom, whose goodness could only be considered when their knees were next-door neighbors on the pew.

She swiped her answer across the screen, glinting in the glare. Her roommate had given her a haircut, and now Willie’s blue was close to the scalp and feather, and the sun was burning her neck.

She was on the patio, out back. Inside, the stovetop timer was counting down from twenty-two. She would hear the minutes run out. The beep, she knew, would came jabby and short, like being pecked to death by a hummingbird.

True and true: She had completed other surveys about movies on her phone in the last three month; no one in her household worked in the marketing, entertainment, or automotive industries. She was on spring break, but even back in the dorms, she suspected the women and two-spirits with whom she shared affinities for certain web series and one made-to-movie musical and hard cider and kimichi turnovers would not immediately come to mind when the app asked what comprised her household. Would TKE—that ricky, racky, gingerbready monstrosity on the corner of campus—reorder her brain?

Willie touched her neck. It was so hot her hand was a relief. Her fingers were cooler than her palm. Even still—she got up, rotated the lawn chair, and faced the other way.

Now her face would burn.

Her mother was out and thank God. In the family room, her father was dunking his mustache in a midday Scotch. Soused walrus, she shushed him. He liked that word—soused.

So did she: soused in the house in the south.

She tipped her chin toward the sun and watched the world darken through her glasses. Yeah, they were Transitions; no, she didn’t care. Willie leaned back, until she saw the bricks her mother had hired the El Salvadorians next door to pave. She let melanoma souse her jaw. She licked her lips—mm, cancer. Macarons were mostly sugar, sugar and nuts, almonds, pulverized.

Pul—that was another sound she like. Pulchritude, pula, Pulaski, pullus.

She listened for the timer. When her family first moved to sunniness, Willie had spotted a baby hummingbird: pullus. A pulchritudinous pullus, the size of a pustule.

False and true: She enjoyed dramas and romantic comedies. She lived in a house where other languages were spoken. Her mother trotted out the French like a show pony. And every Uber driver got an hola.

You couldn’t help what rubbed off.

It was her mother’s suggestion Willie make the macarons. And now they were in the oven. They were growing sturdy pink feet. Rosewater flavored the cookies—it would flavor the filling, too. (Cream + white chocolate) x stir = ganache.

Willie waited. Her screen had stopped feeding her questions. She tapped the device, where a mandala was dialing around and around. When her mother took her to therapy, they passed a billboard for hypnotism. Had she been clouded by the sun? Something about her answer meant she hadn’t qualified to complete the survey.

She closed her eyes and watched a dollar in quarters sizzle away in the heat. Laundry, a tube of trail mix, a packet of Top Ramen. The surveys paid for whatever—it was Willie’s call, no questions—not like her mother.

It was then the figs started falling, a shower of uncracked walnuts. They were hard from the sun, withered after winter, and purple and green, the size of Willie’s burns. Her mother had tricked her, taken her to the beach shop on the pier and bought her a new bathing suit—why? Just to admonish Willie.

What my daughter has done to her thighs! And before a dinner.

As though Willie would be serving macs in the nearly-nude.

The fig that dropped onto her phone screen was wizened, so purple it had become brown. It made a sound—Willie knew it—the plop of a fist hitting a thigh from up-close. Her thighs were blobby. Bruised blue on the tops, blistered red on the insides, where she’d used a cigarette lighter from her roommate’s old Accord to administer the burns. No questions, her own single in TKE: was life such a miracle? Locusts, figs, families—and birds, baby birds, hummingbirds bashing their beaks against the hood on the stove.

JoAnna Novak is a writer of fiction, nonfiction, and poetry. Her debut novel, I MUST HAVE YOU, will be available spring 2017.

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Schools out

Photo by jonathan lopez

She wears her hair in a tall blond beehive. The first time I saw the documentary, I couldn’t stop staring, the freckles barely visible under her face powder, the unflinching gaze. She looked like my childhood southside Chicago babysitter, missing only a Virginia Slims cigarette and a can of Tab. She’s the one who now, when I re-watch the 1977 documentary The Word is Out on DVD, is so matter of fact, so hey this is who I am, OK? I fell in love with the woman next door so they took my kids, but still I can’t change. I fast forward to find the next time she talks, in her starched flowered blouse, a thin gold chain around her neck, sitting on her couch, a knitted afghan at her back, next to her sturdy lover who is a bit shy compared to her, but that’s no surprise. Even if the butch is a top, the femme is usually the tougher of the two. Don’t mistake a lesbian femme for a girl—that’s my survival story.

It’s no surprise that this old school femme and old school butch are way out of lesbian style now, but so is the butch-femme renaissance of my late-1980’s lesbian generation. The hard gender split between two women in love, this magnetism of queer opposite attraction—but too simple now for me to just say I am a femme who goes for the butches. Even my longtime butch-is-the-least-of-it spouse says if we were young today then she might self-define as trans.

Every generation is right to carry on the queer reinvention story, but of course I miss when we were the ones remaking. The resurgence of gender differences between women that made my 20s are for my students the stuff of their parent’s, or even their grandparent’s, generations. I speak to them from an indeterminate space between their parent’s and their grandparent’s lives—the space within which the lesbians in the movies are still wearing stiff tweed suits and tilted fedoras, loners who smoke and keep the books. The space within which Liberace still glitters from his prime time TV specials, my grandmother tittering when he squeezes the puffy fur collar adornments of his white mink coat as he asks, in his high gay closet inflection, “So do you like my fuzzy balls?”  The space within which later all that changes, where lesbians sit in first Donohue’s, then Oprah’s chair to say I am, I do, I knew. The space within which Audre Lorde makes up the word biomythography, telling us there is even a special name for our stories, that we are a joyful creative people who get to make up more words as we go.

I teach an undergrad course called LGBTQ Memoirs in the college catalog, but which the students and I together decide to just call Queer Memoirs. This a general education, literature-of-identity class and my job is to teach them that art has layers and indirection and nuance, and that identity is more mutable and strange than what they read in web memes listing “Ten Things You Should Never Say to Your Genderqueer Friend.”  We read books related to the kind of books I write, but right away I see that my body—the body of their tattooed Queer Nation era professor, always wearing high boots and dresses with pockets, always waving her arms around trying to get them to listen to her stories about how the generations before them lived— is also a book, a badly organized archive of queer history, of which they know little. This is one of the problems with memoir, not knowing where our bodies end and our books begin. What part of my body is a survival story and what part is just what’s left of what didn’t endure?

The beehive blond and her mannish husband were even more out of style when I first saw the movie, in the waning days of lesbian androgyny, all that utilitarian short hair, plaid shirts, and work boots, as if at all times we needed to be prepared to change spark plugs or cut down trees. When I saw them first, when I was just coming out, I didn’t see all the ways they were a part of my story, but now I know how little I knew then, having not yet learned that what holds us all up is the same force that keeps that blonde beehive from tilting—hard and attentive will, intelligent construction, some support, and some massage, and a whole lot of hairspray. In Queer Memoirs I screen not only The Word Is Out but also other documentaries where body after body parses out identity, each word—butch, stone butch, soft butch, bulldyke, stud, lipstick, fluff, femme, high femme, stone femme—is a marker of surviving in worlds where as Audre Lorde said “we were never meant to survive.”

And we might say the words themselves are our stories—the kind with voyages and conflicts to overcome, drama and tears and finally arrival. We talk in class about the interrogative power of language, about how testimony and memoir overlap but are not the same, about how the ways stories are told changes the meaning of story itself, and I ask them to talk about why queer stories matter. The slender trans student who always sits to my right, the only one in the class who requested we refer to them using the pronoun they, laughs in recognition when I say “The one in the movie with the big blond beehive is my hero.”


The Elements of Literary Memoir;

  • Not just memory but interpretation of memory;
  • Frankness and honesty;
  • Emphasis on the inner life;
  • Attention to childhood and youth;
  • Everyday experience as earthshaking as a grand battle.

Like that night in the early 1990s, when the park near the art museum in the center of the city is filling with women. Tattoos glisten under the streetlights and some of the women take off their shirts. The Lesbian Avengers have learned a few good circus tricks and now they’re standing on the tops of cars and are literally eating fire. We pour into the streets, ready to march, no marshals, or street barricades, or police, as there will be tomorrow at the regular Pride Parade. This is the first year of the Dyke March in this city and we march where we please. We start to move, motorcycles first. On the curb are some boys, friends of ours, with signs that read Cocksuckers for Muff Divers. We wave as we pass, me on the back of Linnea’s motorcycle, Linnea muttering about running her engine too slow. We walk, or we ride, and the boys are not the only ones with signs, but there is just one other I remember.  A lone woman with gray hair holds a handmade placard that reads LESBIAN FEMINIST. She is not shouting, or smiling, or eating fire. She is just holding that sign. Maintaining her position. At the time I rolled my eyes, but now I get it. Those words were her story.


The Elements of Queer Memoir (the teacher’s list):

  • The personal is political;
  • Identity is a navigational map between places and communities;
  • Heteronormative and cis-normative expectations are enforced in mundane and often invisible ways;
  • Queer storytelling makes queer what has previously been considered normal;
  • Sex is on the page.

I found more stories from The Word is Out in an archive in San Francisco.  The filmmakers were making something that hadn’t been made before, and like a lot of us didn’t know what they were making until they made it. And so they interviewed everyone they could find, cases of tapes, queer story after queer story. I was working in the archives on another project entirely, but the documentary outtakes waylaid me.  I kept asking the librarian for more, spent days hunched over a video monitor, observing unedited testimony. The inarticulate hippie. The revolutionary poet in no mood for the children’s questions. The novelist with the dirty laugh. I understood why the filmmakers cut what they cut. The first queer documentary ever had to represent. The subjects needed to be coherent, likable, and friendly enough to keep from scaring the straight people. They needed apparently brave stories. Less flawed than typical human stories. This was not the time for novelistic complication or even a place for a complex documentary rendering of contradiction. The first documentary subjects to speak of the love that dare not speak its name had to speak in a manner that would be heard by an audience barely willing to listen.

But that’s the trouble with conventional story, with linearity, with the desire-plus-obstacle-plus–action-plus resolution equation. Sometimes story inscribes when we need meaning to skew, codifies when instead we need meaning to break free. I want another movie made of all those outtakes. If at first we need a neat arc in order to live, later we will likely need something else, to survive the disappointment when we get to the end of the journey to find the terrain has changed.


The Elements of Queer Memoir (the student’s list):

  • The narrator grapples with internalized oppression;
  • Unconventional genders and sexualities flourish within queer communities;
  • Intersectionality means all queer stories are not the same;
  • Memoir is an act of self-redefinition.

I think of the lesbian feminist placard at the Dyke March whenever my story and another, newer, story don’t mesh. Do I carry a placard for a fading story, and if so what does my sign say? My lesbo-queer faculty colleagues and I, at the university where I teach, chatted about this recently. What does the L in the LGBTQ mean now, not as a descriptor but as a political category, in the wake of the beautiful explosion of trans visibility? If gender distinctions as we’ve known them are false, then what is a woman-loving-woman?  We were talking about our activist students, how some of them won’t claim the identity lesbian because to their ears the word invokes something like what the lesbian-feminist placard meant to me— a self-rendering stuck in the past, an unwillingness to keep evolving—but much worse. To them “lesbian” equals transphobic, so they identify as trans, or genderqueer, or queerfem, or just queer. They’ve changed not only the names but the lens through which they see what the names are supposed to describe.

Some lesbians my age are enraged by this conversation, charge the youth with erasing their forbearers’ stories, but I think questions keep us alive. Still, this leads me to a linguistic hitch in my own story:  a lesbian femme, in love with a butch who might be trans due to not feeling right inside the word woman, leaving me to be a woman no longer defined by loving a “woman,” which within the current alphabet of non-normative identity is what?  A trans chosen-family nephew of ours says that makes me a B for Bi, but how can that be correct when the last time I fucked a “man” was in a rustic cabin in 1982—this also being the last time I ever slept in a rustic cabin—and even then I did neither with much enthusiasm.


The Elements of My Queer Memoir

  • My life has been lived within shifting political histories;
  • My home is located on an ever-looping map between my given and my chosen families;
  • Femme lesbians are curio cabinets of misplaced heteronormative expectation;
  • I hate the conflation of women and beauty, but secretly love when you tell me I’m pretty;
  • Queer femmes resist tidy stories about our bodies to avoid confinement inside the stories others tell us about our bodies;
  • Sex will always be on my pages;
  • Queer friendship has always been my liberation;
  • If I am now normal then I have changed normal.

And the self-redefinition at the center of memoir? In the 30th anniversary edition of The Word is Out they re-interviewed the beehive blond, still sitting aside her hubby, both of them in lawn chairs this time, great grandmothers now. She’s still high femme, but wears her bleached blond hair unbound and long. Time is change with echoes. Perhaps my placard will be just an image, a take-no-shit, old-school femme from the high hair days, not anyone in particular, just an enduring bottle-blond fortress, holding against against the elements, no plot, no redemption, more poem than story, swaying, never toppling.

Barrie Jean Borich is the author of Body Geographic, winner of a Lambda Literary Award in memoir, and My Lesbian Husband, recipient of a Stonewall Book Award in nonfiction. She’s an associate professor at DePaul University in Chicago where she edits Slag Glass City, a journal of urban essay arts.

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Photo by Pen Waggener


We at the Passages North office have officially been on summer break for a few weeks now! To celebrate, we had our editors finish the following statement: “You know it’s summer break when _____.”

Jacque Boucher
Spoken Word Poetry
Juneau, Alaska

The reason you haven’t gotten around to reading all those books you said you would gets a little fuzzy. (See: “it’s so nice today,” or “I’m not wearing pants.”)

Hayley Fitz
Associate Editor, Fiction
North Ridgeville, Ohio

instead of “busy” meaning “i have 12 books to read and 283472983 papers to grade,” it means “well i still have three seasons of Always Sunny to finish and it would take a lot of work to put clothes on at this point”

Matt Weinkam
Managing Editor
Cincinnati, Ohio

Two midgets shitting into a bucket. (Wait, I thought this was a Cards Against Humanity setup. I guess I know it’s summer break when I can’t distinguish between appropriate/inappropriate, a card game/ reality.)

Ashely Adams
Associate Editor, Creative Nonfiction
Watervliet, Michigan

Black flies.

Robin McCarthy
Managing Editor
Belfast, Maine

Today I showered for the first time in 8 days. That was my tip-off.

Mike Berry
Associate Editor, Fiction
Troy, Michigan

I get random cravings for stadium hot dogs, $9 beers and frozen lemonade and I start hearing phantom loud drunks cursing the White Sox.

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Being Watched

Photo by Tony Alter

Associate fiction editor Ben Kinney on today’s bonus story: Kyle Ellingson’s “Weekend Out” isn’t a word longer than it needs to be, but the story is stunning in the sheer scope of what it manages to deliver in a few hundred words: characters that seem real, jokes that land, and images you will think about for the rest of the day.

Weekend Out

With Dad:
Walked out of potentially sexy film, at Dad’s behest. He intuited approach of soft-core denouement and swept us out “just in time.”

Napped on enormous L-shaped couch, head to head on long wing, plus Dad on short wing. Awoke when Dad gagged, bitten by own cat, likely in prompting of feeding hour—though really nowhere close to feeding hour. Cat is senile incontinent, name of Hucky, with drooling condition. Learned noun: feline macular degeneration. “Why can’t you be courteous, like my daughters?” Dad, dribble of blood and drool from ankle, said in style of cursewords at Hucky, who flattened ears, aggrieved.

Trod on already kinked tail of Hucky. Whiled night handling raw salmon scraps, coaxing Hucky out of nook of towel cupboard, so Dad could administer vital insulin shot.

With Mom:
Chaperoned to sex talk for adolescents, hosted by open and affirming unitarian church. Lectured to by “loving” couples in sexless chevron shawls, holding hands: man + woman; woman + woman; man + man; amputee + intact; Russian + Somalian; blind + dwarf. Learned adjective: pansexually monogamous.

Afterward, scolded with frown for asking whether handicapped + 180 IQ is acceptable pairing. Learned catchphrase: gray area.

Up late with flashlight, temple to temple in top bunk, snickering at homework pamphlet of mating techniques of diverse species:

Cats—Linked together during sex by male’s barbed penis.
Dogs—Linked together during sex by ballooning tip of male’s penis.
Humans—Linked together during sex by desire for stimulation or by various senses of social or financial obligation.

Breakfasted with Mom and Mom’s significant other, who kept wondering aloud if Mom would like to sit on his lap. Polite, as if lap were platter of hors d’oeuvres: “Lap?” Watched blushing Mom issue same excuse over and over: couldn’t get up with kitten dozing in lap. When kitten stirred, Mom clenched forepaws until, tired from much writhing, it again dozed off.

With Grandma:
Sat at picnic table in park without picnic. Grandma proffered rerun analyses of demise of our parent’s union. Listened with abiding interest as lifetime subscribers to Grandma’s penchant for explanation.

“Your father is afraid of intimacy that results too regularly in hippity dippity. As in, Does she love me or love the hippity dippity? Your mother is afraid of aging and disease and confuses a profusion of hippity dippity with youth and health.”

Cat below, harnessed at end of leash. Munching grasses. Empty-headed bovine calm. Turning head to snack on fronds. Occasional regurgitation and resettling in grass away from unwanted cud.

With Grandpa:
Elbow to elbow, bowed heads at foot of sunken patch of soil. Greener grass on patch than around it.

Beloved son, father, grandfather, lottery winner.

Grandpa there below, with cat decaying in sphinx pose on stomach, the spot it slept on so decisively in life, through nightly tosses, swattings, and turnovers.

Kyle Ellingson lives in Saint Paul, Minnesota, where he works for Garrison Keillor’s Common Good Books. He held a few moderately physical jobs before sitting down to sell books: raking sand traps at a country club, policing the mist button of the bearded dragon coop at a pet shop, bathing fruit in a university kitchen. His favorite recent reads include Elizabeth McKenzie’s The Portable Veblen, Greg Jackson’s Prodigals, and Teju Coles’s Every Day Is for the Thief. Kyle’s fiction has appeared or is forthcoming in journals such as The Carolina Quarterly, Hobart, Redivider, and Chicago Quarterly Review.

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Stir Fry

Photo by Petterl Sulonen

This week, we asked our editors: What recipe best describes your current writing project?

John LaPine
Associate Editor, Creative Nonfiction
Ishpeming, Michigan

Stir fry.

Sara Ryan
Associate Editor, Poetry
Ann Arbor, Michigan

Cheese and crackers. Mostly because I’m still trying to figure my shit out and I don’t have time to make myself a proper meal (or poem or whatever). But it’s sustenance/nutrition anyway.

Sarah David
Associate Editor, Fiction
Minocqua, Wisconsin

A recipe my husband invented called the “whatever” when you just throw a bunch of random tasty ingredients into a pan and hope they tastes good together…mainly because I have a lot of ideas at the moment and I’m not sure yet if they’re going to mesh well in the end.

Ashely Adams
Associate Editor, Creative Nonfiction
Watervliet, Michigan

Step 1: Grab some freshly diced monster kids and a smoked unnecessary research (everyone likes reading about Venusian orbital variation right?)
Step 2: Throw into quesadilla shell. Add cheese
Step 3: Throw into the microwave for about 3 minutes
Step 4: Pull out storydilla. Scream at it for the next three hours
Repeat for next ten years

Jacque Boucher

Spoken Word Poetry
Juneau, Alaska

Right now, my thesis is “So You Committed to Throwing a Dinner Party 6 Months Ago. Now What?”

1. Read the entire Write Bloody library and draft an elaborate plan for a five-course meal. Tell EVERYONE. Invite all your friends. Really ham it up.
2. Let marinate for 3-4 months while you read more and watch a lot of horror movies and cartoons for “research.”
3. Wake up from a stress dream where you serve your friends hackneyed haiku and Saltine crackers. Briefly consider hiring a caterer or moving someplace where no one’s ever heard of this dinner party.
4. Choose instead to double down on the showmanship. Become intolerable.



Patricia Killelea
Poetry Editor
Alameda, California

Assemble ingredients: Emotional/Experiential/Linguistic.

Toss everything into a bowl that’s too small and stir. Gather what’s displaced and save it for another recipe.

Now set the mixture to music, then play that mixture backwards. Let rest for one season, preferably in silence.

Return when only the bones remain. Listen for the song in the marrow.

Take the utmost care in plating, and leave the dish somewhere hungry.

Learn to ignore the sound of people chewing whatever it is you’ve made, and set your hand once more to the great work.

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